c0nni3eeee

2011-09-07T02:02:00.000+08:00

为什么每次每次都要这么吵啊？
真的很累耶。

2011-08-25T00:48:00.000+08:00

Probably wouldn't be able to imagine how helpless i felt while i was on my way home couple hours ago.
It's just like... a empty shell without a soul. You know, the body is so light that i feel like i'm floating instead of walking.
But... it proved that my decision of walking home is right.
My mind is pretty clear now, not that messy anymore.
But my leg hurts. hahahaha.

I really really don't know what is going on with me.
I felt that things that happened recently have totally changed the way how i would see and think things.. and it's not good...at all.
Have been trying to figure out... what can i do to make my life easier and also those around me.
You know especially my family... I just couldn't control myself to throw tantrum on them.
But there's nothing i could do.
It's just because i've run out of options or i've already no idea of what i can do , causes me to use the wrong method.

I don't really see myself as a very useless girl, in fact i'm not at all.
But i really see myself as a very very coward girl.
I don't dare to face the shits that my life gave me, i just run and run and run and try to avoid it as possible as i can.
but i end up getting more shits.

Finding someone who can just listen and feel with the heart of what i'm feeling is really very difficult.
I've already run out of people to talk to. Desperate and dead end.
Screw my life, seriously.

I just feel like sitting down, listening to the sound of the quiet room, staring on the wall and just go blank until tomorrow morning.

seriously if there's a way to knock my head to make me wake up , you know i would do anything to get myself back to reality.

But.... I just can't do it.
I've run out of tears to cry.

2011-08-15T03:15:00.002+08:00

这是我第一次看到你叫我 ‘妹妹’ 。很感动。
大哥，生日快乐 (:

NIGHT SAFARI

2011-08-14T02:07:00.000+08:00

Night safari here i comeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~ HAHAHA.

Just got home from Night safari two hours ago.
Jolene and JJ took the trouble to send me all the way home from Mandai to Tampines.. Deeply appreciated !!
Especially Jolene got to drive back home from Tampines to Bishan again and the guys gotta take cab from to Sengkang. ew. 感恩感恩.

Anyway, the trip to Night Safari was EXTREMELY FUN !! Hahaha.
But it wasn't the animals that's fun... it was our two boys - ~~fun~~ funny ..HAHAHA.
I kind of understood the reason why they could become good friends, they just get super crazy when they get together.
Most probably because they shared the almost-same characteristic!

By the way, Night Safari wasn't that interesting to me..
I do enjoyed myself inside but i think that it's too dark !
Can't even see some of the animals ):
And bats were flying around like nobody's business >.<
The part that i enjoyed myself most was the Tram Ride..
It's super interesting when the animals were just beside you.
And because it's the first time i'm visiting the Night safari so it's actually quite fascinating for me. Hahaha.
Like what my boy said, i'm a Kampong girl. Hahaha.

But i've really enjoyed myself very very much for the whole evening with JJ and Jolene today xD
Looking forward to moreeeeeee outing with the both of them.

ew. I wanna go to the universal studioooooooooo. expensive. ):

2011-08-10T00:47:00.000+08:00

2011-08-10T00:44:00.000+08:00

所有的人事物总是没有办法达到平衡
很累了啦可不可以放我一条生路
算我求你好不好？！
放我一条生路。
让我可以在所有方面得到快乐可以吗？！？！？！？！
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊

2011-08-09T13:06:00.002+08:00

Happy 2nd monthsary my dear boyfriend (:

2011-08-07T00:26:00.000+08:00

I think there's a ~~very~~ super big problem with my personality.
I'll get very very hot tempered and fed up + mood swing when things don't go the way i want them to be.
Then i'll throw my temper on the people around me, especially my boyfriend ( Poor thing )
I'll show black face, ignore texts, reject calls and shout at them, and i seriously couldn't understand why i'm like this ):

My next off day is on Tuesday.. Super shagged.
Totally don't feel like working ( Not even going to work )
somemore working on both weekend can seriously make your whole week black. Sigh.
I wanna sleep until the sun burn me up.. Have a super full and yummy breakfast.
Watch movies and dramas until my eye become soar.
Have a afternoon nap and sleep until the sky turns dark.
Have seafood for dinner and then movie session again before i turn in for the day.
How shiok it is man !!

BUT. Got to work until monday T.T

Ya right, continue dreaming.. Connie Wee.

2011-08-05T23:06:00.002+08:00

怀着昨日那些伤口遇见了你

是你让我获得意义拥有了生机

当所有虚荣都变空虚

是你用爱医好我的内心并开始慢慢痊愈

怀着昨日那些伤口遇见了你

是你让我提醒自己分秒要珍惜

前面的风景还不确定

可是爱你让我重获生命并终于终于痊愈

痊愈

Life without handphone with good camera = SUCK

2011-08-05T22:29:00.000+08:00

忍耐 忍耐 忍耐 再忍耐 继续忍耐~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
 

I really feel like crying. For the sake of my facebook album. 

My last album stops at 08062011 sia! ( Taken by camera somemore) 

The last time i used my phone to take a photo was bloody hell 6 months ago ! ( Because this bloody hell girl lefted her phone in the toilet and was taken by a bloody hell aunty.) 

That phone was my favourite model !!! CANNOT FIND IN THE MARKET ANYMORE.. !

And the camera quality was sooooooooo good.

I miss taking photos of my pretty face with it ): 

And since then onward, my album became so dead. 、

What to doooooo? My camera's quality too good, even small pimple or acne also can see super clearly. 
 

MY IPHONEEEEEEEEEEEE ! 

TOLERATE. CONNIE, YOU NEED TO TOLERATEEEEEEEE. 

JUST ONE MORE MONTHHHH. ONE MORE MONTH AND YOU'LL GET YOUR FAVOURITE IPHONE 4.... !!!

Actually i can take photo from my boyfriend's iphone but the problem is..... he's using iphone 3! There's no front camera and it's super difficult for me to press the shoot button from behind, that's the reason why i wanna get iphone 4.

I need to save my dead album..

I need to save my dead profile picture.

ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. I WANT TO TAKE PHOTOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOS.
I SWEAR I'M GOTTA TAKE PHOTOS UNTIL MY PHONE BURST AFTER I GET IT. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~

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DAMN.

2011-08-04T20:05:00.000+08:00

Damn damn damn! How can i forget the date of my monthsary?!?!
I need to do a correction on my previous post.
It should be 48 96 hours to our 2nd monthsary !! ><

2011-08-04T01:06:00.001+08:00

Counting down 48 hours to our 2nd monthsary! xD

Did i ever mention that i really suck in cooking?
Not in baking though... I bake really really delicious cakes.
But in frying, SUPER CANNOT MAKE IT.
I can fry an egg until the mother chicken cannot recognize! HAHAHA
And i actually tried to fry an egg as part of breakfast for calvin few days ago and to my surprise, I managed to fry a super nice egg.

OMG. I think i need to improve my cooking skill! #$%^&*%$#%^

I find it very very difficult for me to blog in ENGLISH cause i really cannot figure out when to use all the 'is' 'are' 'was' 'were' 'would''should' and etc...
I'd get super super fed up while trying to figure out what to put among the sentences. DAMN.
Why didn't i finish my studies?!
And fcuk those Vocab and grammar!!
Should i blog in chinese then ? hmm hmm hmm.

This episode's Running man is damn funny.
And...... i'm hungry again !
Tomorrow knock off @ 2pm !! YAY YAY YAY .

Ps. Mr Calvin. It's 1am now, please stop gaming if you saw my post ( which i doubted so ) and give me a text !!!! <3

2011-08-02T18:38:00.003+08:00

" You better come up and blog often since you've finally decided to revive your blog ! "

HAHAHA. This is what i told myself when i was choosing a new blogskin and editing a new playlist for my "new" blog.
This is like already the third or fourth times i'm reviving my blog after neglecting it for months... >< 

I didn't expect myself to be blogging again cause i thought i'm too lazy to type a post everyday and especially after i'm super engrossed in facebook-ing.
And it's not that i didn't try to write a diary, yes, a diary. Surprisingly.
I even spent almost near to 50 bucks on the book itself, colour pens, emotion stickers and some accessories.
And i tell myself that no matter what, in order not to waste the money, i've to write everyday !!
The feel was there for the first few days and i'm pretty confident that i'll fill that thick book with full of writing BUT one week later my feeling faded. ):

Damn. I threw 50 bucks into the rubbish bin again. ARGGGGGG.
WHEN CAN I STOP BEING 三分钟热度 AND SPEND MY PRECIOUS MONEY ON IT ????!!!!
I lied to bi that i threw the diary away but the truth is , it's still in my room, somewhere. Hahaha.
Trust me that he's so going to dig my room once he saw this post.=x

Anyway, he called me during his break and told me about what happened just now and i was so furious.
I just can't stop sighing on what have been going on in the shop recently.
It's like stepping onto a war ground, with a long sword on our hand and shield on our back the moment we start work.
And the next moment.. 'DANG' - The war starts.
With all the arrows, bombs, darts and bullets flying around like nobody's business..
People screaming,shouting,crying and pools of blood on the whole war ground.
Then you'll see people on their knee pleading for mercy and bla bla bla....................................................

cough cough cough *
Sorry. I kind of exaggerated it. HAHAHAHA.
But.. i dunno.
The image of the war ground will run through my mind every time i step into the shop, followed by a super long and loud SIGHHHHHHH.

When can i stop worrying about when i will die even without my knowing?
It's like only a matter of time when it will be my turn to be take down by all the shootings.

SIGH. i think it's enough of the heavy.

13th 13th 13th.
Calvin's gotta bring me to the night safari !
Along with JJ and Jolene. Heeee.
I've always been looking forward to meet Jolene , maybe because we're both cancer?
But i'm still deciding whether to go or not cause it's the seventh month leh...
Somemore Zoo is at Mandai....so far from Tampines ><

oh. I'm hungry. When is my dinner going to be back ?